Loving You Dear Loneliness 3

Loving You Dear Loneliness

Long ago I gave birth to a complex emotion
My hands cannot write it, words are poor
My mouth cannot utter it, sound is chaos
And this heart of mine is so weak yet so strong
Dying because of you, keeping me alive to love you
A million miles away, still you devour my soul
Without a care in the world, oh Devil oh Satan
By a voice so lonesome; it made the gods weep
You sang to me and I dazed, melted and faded
How many times have I died a little inside?
Waking up with a smile that is not a smile
Sweet happiness lies to me; keeps me in the dark
While despair suffocates me with pity
Hope rapes me day and night traumatizing me with you
My pride does not want to dream no more
But all I know of you is but a picture, solitude and a dream

Dear loneliness,
I beg of you break the curse, dig me a grave and just le me go
Oh prince charming I have yet to realize your presence
Out of your world and into mine forever more united
But Angels and Demons can never say "I do"
To where you are, my wings fail to carry me
And your mother tongue, my tongue fails to speak
I am exhausted; I am tired, but never of loving you
Once I confessed in my dream within a dream
"My blossoms,
My red Cherry blossoms,
My withered old tree,
No longer do I want my black rose as long as I can have thee".


(Dedicated to Sakurai Atsushi)

Monday, November 28, 2011
1:36 am